A few days into my “year of self discovery” I hit gold.
I stumbled upon something that made me laugh to the point of tears, grin so much it hurts and feel so unbelievably happy. Something that held all the importance in the world to me.
Of course, family’s important to everyone. But I don’t think I’d realised how important my family was to me. Not that long ago all my eating problems had made me so uptight when I was at home. It made me feel constantly angry and removed, like I was locked on the outskirts of family life. But the last year that’s changed more than I could ever imagine.
When I was home (I still call where I grew up “home”) over Christmas I felt so eager to soak every moment up with my family. I started dreading leaving the moment I got there. I felt so happy and at peace there. It was like being with all of my bffs the whole time. With everything that had happened with my Granny it really helped put things in perspective about how I wanted to spend as much time as possible with my family.
Whilst knowing I had to leave to come back to London filled me with so much sadness there was also the overwhelming joy at realising I’d found a big chunk of “Who I Am”. Family!
Growing up I was always close to my family but still fairly independent. Hell, I went to university hundreds of miles from them! I enjoyed seeing them, but I also loved my own space. However they’ve been with me through everything and have shaped who I am. I am truly my entire, childish self when I’m with them, and they bring out the best in me.
So, since I now live a few hundred miles away again (just in the opposite direction!) how do I appeal to this aspect of myself? Well, I’m going to make sure I visit as often as possible as opposed to around 3 times a year, and I’m going to make sure I write to my Granny far more often (me and the rest of my family Whatsapp daily, so I’m not too worried on that front!). Hopefully that will just be the start of being even closer to them.
So success! I’m starting to figure out what’s important to me. What will be next?!
How do you keep in touch with your family?